I hate meetings.......I hate Higher Powers......I hate anyone who has a program.

To all of you who come in contact with me, I wish you death and I wish you suffering.

Allow me to introduce myself, I am the disease of addiction.

I am cunning, baffling, and all powerful. That is me. I have killed millions and I am pleased.

I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I love pretending I am your friend and lover.

I have given you comfort haven't I? Wasn't i there when you were lonely? When yoou wanted to die, didn't you call on me? I was there, I love to make you hurt.

Better yet, I love to make you so numb you can neither hurt nor cry. When you can't feel anything at all, this is true gratification. And all that I ask from you is long term suffering. I've been there for you always.

When things were going right in your life, you invited me. You said you didn't deserve these good things, and I was the only one who would agree with you. Together we were able to destroy all the good things in your life. People didn't take me seriously. They take strokes seriously, heart attacks, even diabetes they take seriously, but, not me.

Such Fools!!! Without my help, these would not be possible. I am such a hated disease, yet, I do not come uninvited. You CHOOSE to have me.

So many have chosen me over reality and peace.

More then YOU hate ME, I hate ALL OF YOU who have a 12 step program. Your program, your meetings, your Higher Power. All of these things weaken me, and I cannot function in the manner I am accustomed to. Now, I must lie here quietly. You don't see me, but, I am growing bigger then ever!

When you only exist, I may live. When you live,I may only exist.<

But, I am here....................and, until we meet again, I wish you death and suffering.

Just wanted to keep in touch,

Your Disease

Never Be Discouraged

There is really nothing we need to know or even try to understand,

If we refuse to be discouraged and trust in Gods guiding hand.

So take heart and meet each minute with faith in Gods great love,

Aware that every day of life is controlled by god above...

And never dread tomorrow or what the future brings,

Just pray for strength and courage and trust God in all things.

And never be grow discouraged be patient and just wait,

For "God never comes to early and He never comes to late!"

Helen Steiner Rice

Tomorrow

Finish each day and be done with it.

You have done what you could.

Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in;

Forget them s soon as you can.

Tomorrow is a new day;

Begin it well and serenly,

And with too high a spirit

To be cumbered with old nonsense.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

GOD GRANT ME (not my spouse, kids or even good friends although they all may need it too)

THE SERENITY(that is, the capacity to be trnquil, unruffles, unflappable in spite of it ALL)

TO ACCEPT(not just endure, suffer, or bear)

THE THINGS(as well as th epeople in my life)I CANNOT CHANGE(even tho I've tried and tried)

THE COURAGE(which can only come from my Higher Power of my understanding)

TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN( Particularly about myself----and You and I know there's plenty to work on!)AND THE WISDOM(perceptiveness, foresight, discernment, and sound judgement)

TO KNOW(not just "guess" or "hope")

THE DIFFERENCE(when I'm in your will and when I simply want my own)

God grant me the Serenity that I may love there best and never feel there worst.

Please do not take this as this was written by a member of Al-Anon for her home group.

With common problems and some rare.

But what has brought us here together

Is one problem we all share.

Our broken dreams have shown us

That many things we cnnot change

In desperation we then turn to God

For our lives to rearrange.

I am greatful that i turned to HIM

And that He guided me your way

I see his work through each of you

And it inspires me everyday.

You helped me come to understand

My Higher Power from above

You gave me tools to build my life

And a precious kind of Love.

By a greatful Al-Anon member